I’m trying not to obsess too much this time. I’m trying to do things the right way, the way I’ll be able to live the rest of my life. When I look back at how I lost all that weight before, I realize that I wasn’t being realistic. I would never be able to exercise every single day, without fail, for the rest of my life. But that’s what I made myself do during that time. If I missed a day, everything started falling apart. Now I let myself make mistakes. If I mess up, I just keep on going. I’m a perfectionist to a fault, and I think that’s what hurt my weight loss efforts in the past. Some days, I’ll have pizza, though not as much as before. I set a goal to exercise 3-4 times per week, because I think that’s realistic and healthy. And this time, I feel much better about everything.
So, because of that, I haven’t posted in a little while. I blogged my heart out last time, and it helped, but this time, I’m off the obsessive train. I’ll blog when I have time, when I have something to say, or if I just feel like it that day.
In my absence, I’ve reached my first and second goals! I’m too excited! I reached my first weight loss goal of 20 lbs. I felt like I could lose 10 or 15 lbs pretty easily and gain it right back even more easily, so I though 20 pounds would be a good way to tell myself that I’m actually doing this.
This is my first reward. I haven’t bought myself something that I didn’t need in so long! It’s not much, but I saw them and wanted them and thought it would be a good way to tell myself — Good Job!
For my second reward, with a 25 lb weight loss, I started tanning. We’re headed to the beach and I’m as white as a ghost and don’t want to burn, so it’s off to tan I go. Don’t worry, I won’t over do it. I think I’ve been tanning 3-4 times my entire life, but I always say that tan fat looks a lot better than white fat any day!
I decided to set up a more constant reward system for myself too.
Weight Weight Loss Reward
285 20 lbs New Flip Flops
280 25 lbs Tanning
274 31 lbs (10%) New Hair Cut
268 37 lbs (12%) New Outfit – Jeans and Shirt
259 46 lbs (15%) True Blood Blue Ray set
255 50 lbs Pandora Charm
250 55 lbs (18%) New Book
244 61 lbs (20%) New Outfit & Earrings
229 76 lbs (25%) Tripod for my camera
218 (1 lb less than lowest weight in 2009) 87 lbs Massage
212 (1 lb less than my lowest adult weight) 93 lbs Mani/Pedi
205 100 lbs Weekend away with my husband
199 106 lbs Party
189 116 lbs New outfit/date night
179 126 lbs New Book
169 136 lbs New Camera Bag
159 (GOAL!) 146 lbs Trip to Bora Bora
Wishful Shrinking 
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