Wishful Shrinking

Things I hate about being fat:

1. Walking through a crowd of people thinking they are talking about/laughing at me
2. Worrying about my children being embarrassed about my size
3. Worrying about fitting on rides at the amusement parks we go to
4. Not being able to go to the beach
5. Worrying about people watching what/how much I’m eating
6. Worrying that things will break if I sit/stand on them
7. Always checking the weight limit on things
8. Not being able to shop on the “regular” side of the store
9. Not setting a good example for my family
10. Having to wear plain/simple clothes because I don’t want my arms/legs to show
11. Plus size clothes that look like your grandmother’s curtains
12. Not having enough energy
13. Worrying about my health and future
14. Always worrying about making sure shirts are long enough to cover my stomach
15. Being hot all the time
16. Feeling isolated from my friends
17. Feeling isolated from my husband’s friends
18. Not being able to sit on my husband’s lap
19. Weighing more than my husband
20. Feeling out of place
21. Buying food for a lot of people — everyone always looks at you as though you’re getting it all for yourself
22. Worrying about what other people think when they see me
23. My knees hurting
24. My back hurting
25. My feet hurting
26. Not being comfortable in my own skin
27. Not being able to wear my wedding ring
28. Not being able to run and play with my kids
29. Getting in a car and having to adjust everything to fit
30. Getting short of breath easily
31. Thinking about losing weight all the time
32. Feeling like a failure
33. Not knowing what it’s like to be thin
34. Feeling unhealthy
35. Feeling lazy
36. Feeling like my success in my career could be greater if only I looked differently
37. Seeing my reflection
38. Seeing pictures of me
39. Feeling like I’m not ever really being me
40. The empty feeling I have inside