Beach Bound Baby!

 

 

 

   It’s important to have a goal….a reward….something to work for.  I love the beach.  I love to sit out on the sand and watch the waves roll in.  I love to feel the sand between my toes and the sun on my face.  I love the quiet tranquility of the early morning, when the sun just begins to rise and the world still looks untouched.  I could live happily for the rest of my life just sitting out by the ocean in quiet serenity and solitude.

The only problem is that when you’re overweight, fat, pleasently plump, or as my sister says “fluffy”, the thought of anyone seeing me in a bathing suit is frightening enough to keep me away from the place I love most in the world.  I haven’t been to the beach since 2009, when I lost all of the weight before.  That was my gift to myself….my reward.

So, I’ve decided to let that be my reward again.  I’ve decided to work toward the goal of being on the beach for a solid week, every day — if I can lose the weight. 

I’ve set my plan in motion and developed a workout schedule.  I’m working on my menu and avoiding the foods I need to avoid.  I just have a few things to fine tune, then I should be able to get back on track.  I’m keeping up with my workouts and food intake on dailyburn tracker.  It helps keep me accountable for eating right every day.

I’m also going to keep blogging on here, at least once or twice a week.  I don’t know why that helped so much before, but i t did.  I found that the more I wrote about it and the more I logged online, the better I did with my weight loss.  So, if it worked before, surely it’ll work again.

I’ll be back in a few days to ramble on again about how things are going.  Right now, I’m headed to sleep to dream about the beautiful Gulf of Mexico and the white sand beaches that wait for the healthier, slimmer me.

New Year….New Motto….No Excuses

 

 

 

 

 

 

I think the hardest thing to do is to really look at ourselves.  It’s a difficult thing to look yourself in the mirror and be honest about who you are and about your qualities – good and bad.  It’s easy to make excuses for our shortcomings.  It’s easy to find a reason for failure.  It’s hard to admit that the failure is just simply your own.

I woke up, I looked at myself….I pulled off the blinders and told myself that I would stop….I would stop making excuses today.  Stop making up reasons why I don’t do the things I need to do. …

Isn’t that the first step in overcoming a problem?  To actually admit that you have a problem?  I eat too much.  I eat too much of the wrong foods.  I enjoy eating those foods.  They make me feel better when I’m sad.  They comfort me after a long day.  Food, for whatever reason, is an escape…a hiding place.  I eat for all the wrong reasons, then I feel guilty for eating the foods I’ve consumed. 

I don’t understand why for some people, food is all about emotion.  It’s about solace, fear, pain, peace, anger, resentment, guilt.  Food is supposed to be an energy source….nothing more….but we make it so much more than what it is. 

We’re supposed to look to our friends, family and others for those emotions….to people…not to food.  We’re supposed to find joy in the things we do, not the things we eat…. but yet… it’s hard to get past all of the emotions food somehow contains.

I’m done.  I’m tired of making excuses to myself.  I’m tired of not being who I set out to be.  I’m tired of letting food control me.  I’m tired of it consuming me.  I’m done with everything that I have been for the past 30 years. 

I ate pizza last night.  and i REFUSE to feel guilty!

I will not let that meal defeat me.  I will not let that be my excuse to fail.

I went to the gym this morning…..and I didn’t feel bad about anything.  I felt good that I went and exercised.  I refuse to let the small things bring me down and keep me from reaching my goal.  I’m through with excuses and guilt.